I had a perminent visiter stop by this afternoon. I found out she was coming on Monday. Giddy as a school girl, I waited for her arrival this afternoon. My new friend came dressed what I'm learning is my favorite color, light black. You might call it grey. I tried to sleep with her after she was ready, but just couldn't do it. Not to say I won't, I'm ready now, but will save myself till tomorrow maybe. Who do I speak of? Why my new BFF, Nova. She's super sexy in my eyes. Her & Maggie compliment each other nicely. Although, I made sure with Maggie before bringing Nova on board. It was only fair.
Nova in all her glory.
Nova is my new couch. I pulled the trigger on her Monday. She was a beast to track down. I don't live the easiest apartment to get furniture in & out. Ask my Brother about moving my bed. I'm grateful to have her. I writing this now on her. Before, the only place to sit was on the floor or on my bed. Here's a before...
Before Nova
She's an exciting addition to 801 Park to go with Alfed the butler/ vacuum.
I'll leave you with one of the band that shaped me, R.A.M.O.N.E.S... RAMONES.
I apologize for my lack of interaction. In December, I started dating. We went out 7 time through out January & February. On our last date, she told me "She wasn't sure about us." Which, needless to say, I took as "She wasn't sure about me." Maybe, I'm wrong. I've spent the last month depressed. I have had depression probably since sixth grade (If you know me, you can do the math.) & properly diagnosed, as a senoir in high school. My parents finally took me to the doctor when I threw a chair Bobby Knight-style in a church basketball game. I didn't want to go to school any more & didn't care if I graduated or not. And, to be Frank, I was done with life. I could leave anytime. Over the next 22 years, I've learned to cope with my illness. I started out n anti-depressants, but as I got older &had to pay my own bills, I've weened myself off of them. I take a good dose of St. Johns Wort, vitamins, regular sleep, & I vistit a homeopath to help cure myself & my core. Top of that list is to cut out those things that make me depressed. Number One with a bullet is girls. I don't date. I really depise it. I could count on my fingers & toes how many dates Ive been on in my life. SEVEN was a lot of dates with one person for me. (Two dates with same girl was a record.) I've moved on. I don't think I was depressed about the girl really. More that, I don't want to go on another first date/ job interview again. By April 1st, I will be on a dating website. I don't see how else I'm going to meet someone. I'm ultra shy around all girls at first. I warm up. I'm telling this to you to push me to do this step. For reals.
Please listen to this song by Frank Turner. Music eases my mind & singers/ Songwriters say things better than I do.